My Typology Journey [and what it means to be who I am]
I first learnt about typology through MBTI around 2020. I took the 16P test, and it typed me as an ISFP. Then my friend said I was probably INFP instead. But I thought to myself, 'no... i'm definitely an extrovert'. So I went with ENFP. Not off to a great start, but I would've been 11-12 so I'm not too fussed about all that.
I proceeded to become relatively obsessed with it for a good few months, researching cognitive functions and such and making everyone around me take the Sakinorva test. Of course... This test is inaccurate and inefficient, seeing as it's super long and not a great starting point. Despite researching cognitive functions, I didn't have a great understanding of what it was.
Eventually, around late 2023, I thought about MBTI after not really paying it much mind. I remembered typing myself as ENFP. I thought to myself, well, I'm definitely not a 'feeling type'. So I'm probably just ENTP.
Then I began to actually think for once. "Should I be typing by letters? Probably not. Thats the one thing I'd advise against when I was kinda young and into it, despite doing it myself mindlessly. Welp, there goes the Ti... And I'm starting to not think I have any Ne..."
Then, one night, I was in a taxi coming home from a trip all by myself. I thought to myself, heh, I'm pretty self-sufficient, aren't I? On top of that, I'm such a good leader. Heh...........Hey, that sounds a lot like an ENTJ. Well, snort, I'm not an ENTJ, that's crazy--
I'm an ENTJ.
Reading through the cognitive functions and the general behaviour of what a REAL ENTJ behaves like or their thought process goes as was literally like reading my own diary. I have no clue how these people got this information on me. I'm being stalked. I began to think about it obsessively over the coming days. This probably came about because it was especially during a period in which I really struggled with my self identity and what I valued. So reading all about ENTJs was incredibly mind opening.
Of course, I eventually moved on to other typology systems... I was pretty hyperfixated on it for most of 2024, especially alongside the UTMV fixation--so I ended up writing a LOT of analyses for Sans AU typology. Unfortunately, a lot of the time this was kinda only MBTI, because up until mid-late 2024 that was pretty much all I got into. But since then, I have dedicated a lot of time to researching other systems, including what typology I would fit into. Theoretical stuff usually bores me, but the theory of typology and things like trauma, childhood, thought processes... All of it was creepily aligning with me, so it all made sense in a more practical way, if anything.
Now I genuinely think that typology is one of my special interests. I find it very interesting that my brain decided to hop onto this specific interest, but hey, I'm not complaining. I've seen a lot of people call typologiers 'pseudo-intellectuals', but they're just mad that they can't just do a 16P test and move on.
So... ENTJ, huh? The Commander.... The Scary King... The Sexy Villain... the Queen Girlboss... Which one are you, Blue? My regular answer is that 'I'm just me, and you should fuck off with your stereotypes'. My funny answer is that I'm Queen Girlboss.
In all seriousness, I feel sometimes that I am a very, very odd Te dom. When I was first looking at the description for Te, and then later on studying it more in depth, I literally could not relate harder. That is MY function. But there was one key aspect that was really annoying me.
I have THE WORST Ti in the world. I have dyscalculia, and I literally just… cannot process theoretical things in my head. For example: I’ve gotten okay at math as the years go on, mostly out of literal hours of study, but as a little kid I couldn’t even process in my head why x(2-3) would have to expand into -x. Things like that. I understood, but I couldn’t put it into practice. It’s like the nerve that formed just… died.
So when I was reading through the Te description, I was really worried that, for some odd reason, because I have dogshit Ti, I didn’t actually fit the Te criteria. Despite Te and Ti being different functions...
But then I read that the Te thought process is a little different. The Te dom puts thought and time into things that they find valuable—they will always be able to tell you WHY they are doing something. I get this, and of course anything I do has reason… But I can’t help but have some kind of weird imposter syndrome. My interests are, literally quoted by the internet, kind of… bad. Like, objectively.
Steven Universe is not a well written show. Typology is a flawed pseudoscience. UTMV was curated from edgy teenagers’ OCs based off of a character that already exists… which is then. shipped. with. himself.
You get the point.
I always thought that if I were an ENTJ, let alone a Te dom, I’m a really odd one. I've even been told this before. That I come off a lot like an ESFP, an ESTP, an ENFP... Literally anything but an ENTJ.
Part of this is because the MBTI system tends to be quite flawed. Enneagram and Socionics tend to explain the Te point of view without it getting so disordered to the point where any ENTJ is stereotyped to hell into being the new-age Napoleon.
Socionics' LIE has a much better description of what the ENTJ theoretically should be. This probably fits best for ENTJ E7s, but, it still fits. Most ENTJs tend to at least have an E7 fix (from what I've noticed, at least) which is why it works so well with most ENTJs. Socionic types don't exactly correlate with MBTI types, but again. I've noticed many ENTJs will fit into LIE as it just kind of. Seems like a better description.
I would also like to point out that the Self-Preservation Three of Enneagram fits my specific view of Te much better as well. There's definitely a reason why Enneagram is my favourite system HAHA... Be careful to not seperate most ENTJs relation to Sp3 as not relating to E3 core or So3/Sx3. I still relate pretty well to So3 as well LOL
In short... Typology does not define you. You define your typology. Maybe one day when I'm older I'll act like a more serious and oh-so-terrible demanding ENTJ. But for now I am a happy cheerful social butterfly who gets... Really serious about grocery shopping